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lol sounds like she’s the toxic reason behind the divorce. Just leave the relationship. It’s not worth it
Totally understandable.
Luckily there always seems to be a way to help you to get along with the effects of your ptsd.
I checked again and I did send an “I miss you” text but that was on Feb 12. BF and I got together on Feb 14. It’s still a short amount of time though, so would you consider it cheating? I really feel like my boyfriend gaslights me, and he makes me feel crazy and doubt my own memory.
You’re right. I regret doing that so much. I’m so ashamed I even got to that point, and I’m so sorry to him that he had to see me like that. I don’t know how to fix that. It also makes me wonder if he drove me to that point, is he healthy for me? I’ve never done anything like that in my life.
I already cut Steve off. This decision was going to heavily impact our friend group, but I still did it. For religious reasons first, for myself second because that’s not the person I want to become or am, and for my boyfriend third. I read those messages and I was disgusted at how I was so in denial and didn’t even stop him when he flirted, and even flirted back with him when I had no feelings for him. It was messed up. I talked to my two other friends about cutting Steve off and told them about it, and it was hard but I did it.
He says I don’t put in any efforts for him and I’m not trying and I don’t know what that means. What is putting in effort in a relationship? This is my very first relationship so I still have a lot to learn.
If it’s not cheating, I don’t want to make it seem like it is when I lay out the two choices for him. Wouldn’t telling him to leave the relationship if he asks to see the messages mean I did something severely wrong and also mean that it’s worth breaking up over? Steve wasn’t anybody to me, and my boyfriend means so much more to me. I’m in love with him, and I never thought I’d fall in love like this anytime soon. Before, when he was looking through my messages, he wanted to look through the messages to see “how I really am”. I’ll admit, I lied in a lot of my messages with Steve, I told him so much about me like all the friends I had in highschool, the worst time when someone did me wrong back then, Steve told me about all the times he spoke with a girl, conversations like that. I was being something so far from myself, something I wasn’t for 18 years of my life. My boyfriend says how I am in those texts is how I am right now, even though that was months ago.
I don’t want him to go through the texts in more detail, because I don’t want to hurt him even more. He already can’t take what he saw, and I assume it’s because he liked me from before. I did like my boyfriend before February 14, and I would deeply suppress my feelings for him and be in denial about it. He also said that he made a list of my red flags, but he wouldn’t show them to me unless I showed him the messages (properly show them, let him read every single text). I so badly want to know how to be better to him, so should I show him? Would me letting him see the texts with Steve make me a better girlfriend? Because I don’t know what else they would do other than hurt him and ruin our relationship. He already lost trust and respect in me from skimming through it.
What animosity? OP says they have always been civil to each other. I’ve had friends date people I don’t like and I wouldn’t not invite them unless they were rude or behaved badly. They’ve been together for SIX YEARS and this was a casual gathering at a bar, safe to assume GF has been invited to many such events. So if she wasn’t welcome at this one they should have said so in advance.
nah he’s right