I just don't understand what I'm doing wrong here.
Stop the passive aggressive pushing for marriage.
He clearly said that he isn't ready. If that isn't enough for you to understand: Put on the adult pants and have a serious talk about your expectations for the relationship. And if that doesn't fullfill your wishes and needs, maybe you should start thinking about if you are in the right relationship. Both of you.
And given your constant pushing for something he doesn't want at the moment, he is most likely already considering if he wants to continue this relationship with you.
I just don't understand what I'm doing wrong here.
Stop the passive aggressive pushing for marriage.
He clearly said that he isn't ready. If that isn't enough for you to understand: Put on the adult pants and have a serious talk about your expectations for the relationship. And if that doesn't fullfill your wishes and needs, maybe you should start thinking about if you are in the right relationship. Both of you.
And given your constant pushing for something he doesn't want at the moment, he is most likely already considering if he wants to continue this relationship with you.