“My bf (22M) is threatening to kill himself over our breakup after being abusive towards me (21F) . and he is begging me now to come back so that we can fix the relationship What should I do ??”

I (21F) was in relationship with my bf (22M) for 4 years but yesterday i told him i want to breakup and he is threatening to kill himself ???.

Little Backstory here

We met through IG during pandemic and we didn't have any common friends but over the period of 9 months during the lock down we got to how each other and he told me he was rich (not that it should matter but he told me that) that he belong to a well do to family and he has a older sister that was their parents favorite and they always treated him badly even though he always tries to help them in chores but she didn't . I used to feel we sympathetic towards him and try to make him feel better. He use to say that he never met a girl like me and i was his first serious relationship and that he wants to marry me someday . This was the period of how 9 months went by in short.

When we met after all this time he was everything that i wanted in a boy he was caring considerate and respectful . Everything was good he gave me a gold ring on anniversary , a watch on my birthday and Daniel wellington bracelet on other occasion.

In 2nd year of our relationship I noticed that he has a drinking problem like he used to drink like on every 3rd day and used to encourage me also for drinking .At beginning I used to be like sure it will be fun but after sometime i couldn't the bad hangover and my money draining out and I stopped not all together but gradually and i was also not addicted but when i used to tell him to stop drinking so much that he should focus in his career but he didn't listen and we used to have major fights regarding this but he always apologize next day when he was sober but that didn't stop him from repeating this behavior again and again . When i used to confront him that he smells like alcohol he used to blow up the thing in place of expecting that he was drunk and during that time i got but know about him family problems that his family was in lot of debts and they weren't poor either . I was mad after finding this out and i wanted to end things at that time but somehow he convinced me to stay that he will change and never lie to me again I was just SO IN LOVE with him.

During 4 year of my relationship i found out i was pregnant and i didn't want the baby because i was still studying and we opted for abortion pill

During this year we started fighting a lot during one of these fight he hit me for the first time for about 4 hours he didn't let me out of his room i was crying so badly that i wanted to go to my room please he can drink as much as he wants but let me go and somehow when he went somewhere i made a run for it and call his cousin brother and his friends and they came as soon as possible to take him away . Next when he was sober he cried and apologize and begged me to stay and i was still pregnant at that time so I was just scared to be alone so I forgave him and went for the abortion and for sometime he did change but this repeated again 5 more time (Fights were not just him hitting me it was more like he intimidate me by holding my shoulders tightly shaking me and pushing me while holding my neck and i also did hit him but not after 3rd time)

During 4th time when he was done hitting me after drinking I checked his cell phone and i found some chats of some girls but there was one that stood out i decided to take photos of those chats and i decided to call one of the girl and she told me he was talking to her for one months and he said I LOVE YOU to that girls but they never did anything past that and that she didn't know that he had a girlfriend and she apologized to me and that she will stop talking to him and at that time i was so furious that i called his parents and told his dad everything and they were very apologetic and said they will talk to him and after all this his parents didn't seem like bad people to me at least . After that he day call me next day and the same old story that i shouldn't do this to him that he love me and no one will ever love me as much as he did and all that one the period of one month he tried really hot trying to win me over and eventually i did forgave him and everything went normal for couple of months

after that i started getting trouble sleeping at night i used to wake all night apart from occasional wink and i didn't have the energy to do anything i used to lay in bed all day and not eat or eat enough just to survive and he took me to doctor and i was also having panic attack .during this phase one day he asked me to meet him at night and he sounded drunk and i didn't want to meet him and he came to my room and when i came outside he starting arguing and he hit me straight across my face some how i came to my room and i ate all the anxiety medication (8-9) that had at that time and i collapsed my roommate got really scared and she called my bf and they took me to hospital . i was in the hospital for 3 days but i didn't die that day obviously and i still forgave because he took care of me in the hospital for 3 days when my parents couldn't come and my parents were really thankful of him for taking care of me

i was diagnosed with OCD and Anxiety disorder and for some time he was good to me but my feelings just went away and i decided to breakup with him and now he is threatening to kill himself.

what should i do???? folks please be kind with your i know i m in the wrong here but i didn't have any friend and he was there when i needed him the most.