UPDATE my [31F] husband [32M] beat me because my coworker talked to me at work

here is tha og: https://www.reddit.com/r/relationship_advice/comments/10wb53b/my_31f_husband_32m_beat_me_because_my_coworker/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf

I hope that link works, this is my first time trying an update

I am really grateful for everyone’s pretty blunt advice lol

it’s been a month, and he is gone I let him keep the car because it was the only way to get him to leave asap

my family came, it was tha longest we had gone without seeing each other. he had us hating each other for the past year, so it was really nice for everyone to reconnect and for me to remember who I am. they helped me get a car

but tha main thing is that I LOVE MY LIFE literally wow, existing is amazing!! I am so happy to own my life and not to on-line in fear anymore! not to have so much hatred and paranoia inside of me

I started to become someone I never wanted to be in that relationship. my own anger and violence

I thought tha only way to get out was to let him kill me because things had gotten so co dependent. all the cheating on me made me feels so attached to him I wanted him to fix how I felt.

my past relationships were bad, but in a more calm way, I was not used to something like that

I never understood why people stayed in hell like this, but here I found myself

for anyone else who also feels stuck, freedom is right around tha corner. it hurts, but if you go thru it, things get better so much faster than you can ever imagine

I can’t explain how amazing my life feels now, so quickly.

thank you everyone for your support and words and honesty

I AM SO HAPPY TO BE ALIVE 🙂