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Birth Date: 1999-01-20
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Date: September 20, 2022
I get overwhelmed with stuff that's out of my control, is that anxiety, being highly strung or a self esteem issue? Yes to one I'm sure in my case.
Some people love to be pampered and treated to things, I wish I could. I get very emotional and feel conflicted with big gestures and I don't know why, there's something wrong with me I guess. For instance, my husband texted me the other day asking if I fancied him booking a last minute holiday all inclusive in May. My immediate response was worrying about getting the time off but yes I would really like to, he was upset I wasn't excited and bouncing off the walls immediately about it. My mother has offered to help a bit financially with a car and I got really upset and worried about it despite gushing my appreciation of help. My mum got angry that I never just get excited about anything.
I don't know why I get like this, I don't earn as much as my husband and my mother did back when she worked. I am always concerned about money and even as a kid I hated having money spent on me as I felt guilty as I knew back then we were broke (my sister was very demanding so never had an issue about asking for anything). I feel like I don't deserve it or maybe its a control thing, that someone has control of my happiness by dangling a carrot I don't have infront of me and fearful of blindly taking it, I've been let down by promises before.
My husband booked our dream honeymoon as a surprise for my birthday with organising an extra week off with my manager which I loved, as my husband KNEW the first thing I would worry about was we didn't have enough time booked off for the holiday. I was genuinely excited about that holiday but I did worry like hell about it too. It was wonderful though and I did manage to relax mostly once I was there and knew it was happening.
I find it hot to let myself go and enjoy things without building up a wall of expecting something to go wrong or it to be a dream rather than reality. I 100% trust my husband and know he always does his best for me which I am hugely grateful for, I feel I am just unlucky and bring problems, which also makes me acutely aware me worrying about stupid crap like this is likely the cause of things going wrong later.
It's not fence sitting if he isn't staying out of it… throwing away your list and denying it isn't staying out of it. It's gaslighting you futher. He's on one side of the fence, he's just holding his arm over the other side so he can say “look, I'm on your side!”
So after she woke up and sobered up, sit down and calmly tell her what she did and let her know it made you uncomfortable. And ask her how would she feel if you sucked a female stripper's nipple for a free shot? I'm sure she wouldn't feel good about it either. So work up the conversation from there and see what happens. You can update me if you want.